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Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Midnight Ponders You would know it when you have the feeling of absolute silence within yourself, that some things might be crushing the juices out of your brain. To have your inner soul in such a solitary state of emotion would sometimes be of an obstacle to you for quite a while, or at least at that very moment. Come to think about it, often and at night especially. I would start to realise that my mind is starting to nudge me from within, trying to make it known to myself that it needs me to pay attention to it. As soon as i could feel my heart throbbing, my pulse quaking, fluctuating high and low. Frightfully, it sends tremors to my heart yet I, at the same time, am clueless of it. It scares me badly, feels as if someone was pushing me off a high mountain, making me do bungee, and alone, I would just be hanging there, bouncing up and down on a suspension rope. Sometimes I would be frightened, sometimes I would reflect, sometimes I would feel at eased. I wonder how many of you do actually get such feelings as well, but nonetheless, it is one feeling that will always be hard to crack for me. For now, I just hope things would all turn well for everyone. All to be happy with their lives, all to be hopeful as well. Alexis ♥ | 3:26 AM | back to top
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
An Explicit Affair This is me. This is my life. I have no regrets living through it. It's been a blast. ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() You can find the rest here. Fαdd.η | 7:28 AM | back to top
Monday, March 16, 2009
Adaptation The Suite Life of ELMO, GEMOQUE and ASHA. ![]() At first, it was my brother's friend who found him. It was at Bedok, my family nor I was there. It was two days after he found Elmo, that we brought him in. I was shocked that my brother, Fadd, would bring a cat back. It was so small, eyes not opened. It's very rare to find a cat in a situation like this. I thought it was bought, not found. I was delighted, to finally have a real companion, other than the two rabbits I had back then, Leo and Wolfie. The two rabbits are boring, that's why I won't talk about it. (: . Mum did not like Elmo at first. But due to Elmo's cuteness we decided that, Elmo should be a part of us, nothing less, nothing more. Since then, we are proud to announce that he is a part of our FAMILY. We then started to find baby bottles for cat, and the milk that were specially made for them. For the first few weeks, we gave Elmo the man-made milk for cats, but it was so expensive, costing about $30 or more per tin. We would feed him milk until his stomach would fill, he would then lie down on his back, and sleep. After awhile, we couldn't afford to waste anymore money on the cat's milk and we decided to buy a cheaper one, which was meant for humans. We thought it would be the same but then, it wasn't. It made him grow faster physically, and soon mentally. I still could recall my grandmother feeding him with the milk and he would grab the bottle himself, but he wasn't that strong to hold the bottle and the bottle would then fall to his belly, which will make him jump. I really missed that. Elmo's baby times... I would never forget that. We watched him grow, day by day. When he was about 4months old, I decided to play with him, making him catch me. My brother bought a ball, which has some small marbles in it, which makes sound whenever I shake it. So I ran with it, all around my house, ignoring the scoldings I got from all my family members, claiming that it was super noisy. At that time, all I wanted to do was make him a cat that is full of energy, that love to run. Then, I always ordered McDonald's. I would always save some fries for him, cause he like fries at that time. Then, he had sore throat, or a cat fever. He just lied down in the balcony for hours, till we noticed that he was sick. We immediately sent him to a vet, where he received his jab. The doctors there gave us a medicine, which was liquid, and we didn't know how to make him swallow it, cause it stinks. As soon as we got home, my brother opened his mouth gently and I tried to put it inside his mouth. It was a success but the problem is, I gave him too much, way too much till the medicine was finished. The next day, he cured and he was back to who he was, a playful cat. Everyday, when I come home from school, feeling stressed, he would come to me and purr, asking me to scratch him, and I did. Although it seemt boring, but making him happy, makes me happy too. A year later, he was disastrous. He wanted freedom, he peed at the door, hoping that we would give up on him and "throw" him on the void deck. Sadly, we did. Of course, I cried. Losing my little brother, was just too sad. I couldn't help it. I mourned for a few days, then my brother came up with a brilliant idea, to make a "poster" on Elmo. We wrote that he was missing and if anyone found him, call us. That night, it was the seventh day of his loss. Even mum missed him, even though she was the one who abandoned him, but I don't blame her, it's what Elmo wants, and we decide to fulfill it. After sticking the papers on the news at some walls in the lobby and bus stops, we got a few calls, but none of them was Elmo. We had a last call, which was blocks away from our flat, quite far away. We were exhausted, so we didn't go there. My brother and his girlfriend went out and came home at two. He claimed that he found Elmo at the first floor of our block. I jumped in joy, till I cannot sleep. Everyone came to him, gave him food. He ate greedily as he didn't have a feast for seven days. I was really relieved that he was safe. He didn't go far after all. He went missing for quite a times too, but we wasn't worried, cause we know that he will just walk around this block, and at the same day, we would find him. Now, he knows how to go back home to my house, after having a walk around with his new girlfriend in the 1st storey, Scarlet. ![]() Isn't Gemoque a unique name? It was supposed to me Gemuk, means fat, cause he IS fat. But we made it unique, and it's GEMOQUE. Hohoho. It was on the fasting month, when I and my sister found him at block 794, near Admiralty MRT station. We were actually collecting food for later, when we break our fast. Along our way, we found him, his leg was scalded. He was so cute, and we pitied him. He was eating the grass, cutely. My sister and I brought him home. And again. Mum denied him, she said one's enough. We abandoned him at first. Since it was raining, mum pitied him and asked me to take him back until rain stopped. The rain didn't stop, which showed us that God wanted us to take him, but the next morning, mum threw him away, without my permission. I was really angry and mad at her. I stormed out of the door and went to look for him. Unfortunately, I didn't get to find it. Mum came down to find me, and she did. She said she found Gemoque and I was so happy. We apologised to each other. Then, Gemoque was also a part of our family. Anyway, Elmo needs a friend which is a cat. But Gemoque was a bit of a gay. Yeah, it's funny. He's weird... He talks to us. Whenever we say something, he would echo back, I mean, purr loudly. *MEOW!*. Something like that. (: . He was the cutest cat we've ever gotten. His feet and hands stinked because he intentionally stepped on his pee and it made his feet and hands YELLOW. Whenever we wanna carry him, he would push us away in the face with his smelly and stinky hands. He never liked bathing as much as Elmo does. Hahah. Sadly, he love to take risks. He sleeps at high places, where he can fall, and hurt himself. We would laugh at him at first. The way he fall is cute. He slept at the table, and rolled around till he fall. We didn't thought that it could be so serious. One day, he slept outside of the house, at the edge of a ledge. He fell down, from the 10 floor. It was really gory, luckily, I didn't see that fall. Only the next day, we found blood at the 1st floor, just beside where the ledge is positioned. | | <---- Ledge. [ ] <---- Ground, 1st floor. It was | | [ *** ] The ledge was on the 10th floor. The *** is the blood. Yeah, it was sad, I cried too... I really missed him. Rest in peace, Gemoque. ![]() This cat's a pity. We adopted her from two owners, who are totally responsible. Asha was cute too. She was black. Her name's nice too. The owners had to go Australia to work and they had no choice but to give up on her. We took her in, mum was very very displeased with us. She was stressed. A few days later, she started to like her. Gemoque really hated her, he would try to bash her up whenever he can, so we kept her in my brother's bedroom. Soon, after a year, Elmo and her had three babies, Cosmic, a female, Wilber and Gilbert, both male. They were very adorable. Unfortunately, due to some reasons, we can't keep them, nor we could keep Asha. By then, Gemoque had died. But we really had fun with her. The last time I saw her babies were somewhere near 888 Plaza. They were grown-ups. Now, I don't know anything about them but I do pray for their safety. So, that's my cat's life. And that's how much I love my cats. I love animals. I try to make them happy if I see one, except for dogs. I touch them sometimes. I don't get why some people say dogs are scary. It is true they are scary at times, but they are adorable too. Hmm, I guess this is it. It's the end of this post. Hope you enjoyed this post a lot. I spent an hour on this post or more. Till then. I wanna see you guys, Gemoque, Asha, Cosmic, Wilber and Gilbert. I miss you guys... Adapted from my lil bro's blog, Nazri. Till then. Fαdd.η | 1:14 AM | back to top
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
Cheshire Cat When i first received a call from Ismail 2 years back, i was hesitant. For a fact that i know nuts about bringing up a baby, or in this case a kitten. He was found abandoned, in a box, all alone, still frail, eyes yet to be opened, crying non-stop presumingly for his mother. He has no hope of survival. But that's why they say miracles do happen. Now, He is a 2 year old tuxedo cat. He is the pampered one in the family. I still remember the 1st day when i got him, i fed him bottled milk. Like a baby, he wants to hold the bottle by himself. Feeding him till he bloats - literally. He will cry in the middle of the night when everybody's asleep. What can i say, he's a little rascal. As days past by, his eyes begin to open, his teeth began to shape up, & he starts to pick up human traits. Curious about the outside world. Rushing at every opportunity he can to run out the door, watching cars drive by and birds chirp by. He learnt potty on his own, he learnt to ask for food when he's hungry, he learnt how to groom himself. He has indeed grown into a fine young lad. As our bonds grow, i discover that i do love animals. Be it canines, felines or any other animals. And on that fateful Monday morning, i was sitting alone at the BBQ area waiting to wake the rest up, i saw these group of cats grabbing bites of leftovers. Not afraid of human contact. I gave it a thought. We don't see stray dogs co-existing with humans often unlike stray cats do. They live and hunt in packs. Depending on each other to survive. But cats are independent. They are all for themselves. Though i don't wish to go about issues of strays and whatever that comes with it. We all have our own reasons for not liking cats, dogs or animals in general. Till date, i've taken in 3 cats into my household. Now still living with us will be the pampered Elmo. I've taken in an Ash colored female cat who loves to on top of me, Asha & a wounded fat cat who likes to talk back to me, Gemoque. Both has always been in our memories be it wherever they could be now. Asha, like Elmo was abandoned when she was young. I saw her photos online and i told myself, i can do this. I can help this kitty. I took Asha in, took care of her. She soon got kittens with Elmo. Cosmic, Gilbert, Wilbert. They are now being well taken care of by a cat lover around my neighbourhood. Gemoque fall to his demise. Gemoque's a strange cat. He always talk to me. Not as in literally talk. But he will purr and meow at me. As if he's talking. He's the glutton in the family & he stinks of pee. He has quite a character. Whenever we put him close to our face, he will use his paws which he purposely stepped on his pee and push it on our face. He likes to sit on his back and watches tv with my grandmother. Gemoque likes high places. He doesn't run away. He has the freedom to walk anywhere he wants. He can go missing for the whole day and found on the next day. But one fateful day, he fall down to his demise. Sad, brutal, or gory, it's true. I've always been visiting http://www.catwelfare.org/. As much as i wished to help these strays, it's not possible. I don't have the space, time & money for it. I do still receive emails from cat lovers around this small nation who cares for this stray, and some of the emails are sad to see. Kittens as young as few weeks old dismembered beyond recognition, Kittens beaten till half of it's brain showing. I wonder, what does these strays ever do to hurt you? Even if they did, why can't we show them sympathy? Aren't they still alive and breathing? Able to feel pain, sadness any other other feelings we can feel. They are given a life to live. Be it shorter than us, to them they might feel as if they lived as long as we do. They don't have fucking 9 lives if they are being skinned alive. What's left of it is it's head, bones, and it's tail. And these people who hurt animals of any form get away with it. While some idiots rather write to complain with regards about over populating strays, shouldn't they 1st acknowledge the wrong doings of irresponsible owners. Brushing time, kids, pregnancy as their alibis to abandon their pet astray. They should have thought about it fully before making such decision. What about the bonds they make with the pets they keep? What about their feelings? Should they be as smart as us, they would have not trusted humans. But still generations after generations, they try to co-exist with humans. SPCA can't be blame for putting them to sleep. They don't have the space to hold all these strays. As much as i pity these strays, all i can do is do what i can. I will keep on looking after the strays in my neighbourhood. Till then. PORTFOLIO AMIGOS
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