There's always a point of time when you feel that you have no one at all. You, alone surrounded with the solitary atmosphere. This feeling makes me scared, I really feel empty when I sit down and think about it. How should it go about? Reactions will be bad, not as if its like goofy. Emotions will be still, no more happy happy moments.

Will it always be like that? Will it carry on? Will things be in this situation all the time? I dont know how I'm meant to feel anymore. So many so many things stirs up in my head, rumbling around like crushed papers and cotton balls.

Things dont change I guess, the more you want to work hard for it, the more you fall back and it hurts. It feels lonely, sadly this is the fact. Looking at how others could be prolly make me wanna cringe more, knowing the fact that the co-existing things crushes me into bits and pieces.

How many more things am I supposed to place in my already-filled-heart? I feel very trapped within myself, I can't speak, I can't voice it out, I can't cry my thoughts out.

Maybe I'm not supposed to be happy at all.