Yesterday marked the 11th month that we've started dating. I had fun yesterday. I hope you did too. Though we had a bad start, it ended well. There are a lot of things i wanted to say. Yet, i couldn't bring myself to say it. I am capable of smiling, sharing laughter and joke. It's been long that we did have a conversation like that over the phone. We can be on the phone for hours and not saying one word. I'm glad it ended well. The durian escapade ended the day on a high note.

I know i'm in no position to give her advice about school and how she should run her life. Yet, knowing that i'm a dropout from NAFA doesn't make me feel any better to be bumming my days away. I come to understand your allowance and the credit card is sufficient for the life you're leading now. Being satisfied with a life of such, it makes one no difference than me. While you can aspire and reach greater heights, i can only leave the past with regrets and move forward.

She's been as round as the moon lately. I would recommend her to swim. Running or jogging isn't her forte anyways. There's time to have fun, and yes, fun is essential, but managing time is equivalently essential. She should manage her time better for school, friends, and personal time.

I've even come to conclude that she's under stress. Partly, i'm to be blamed. She maybe stubborn, yet she's so delicate that she breaks and fall apart easily. I'm not saying it's wrong, but it shouldn't be a weekly event. Money should be channeled somewhere for times of need. I understand, a normal guy from an average family, wouldn't have the slightest idea how it feels like to have money constantly to dispense.

Yet, i hope she would open her eyes and heart that it's not the end of life. There will be a point of time where one will ponder about their own future. But then again, it's not in my jurisdiction to speak of this. She will find her own path to lead eventually. Gomenasai. Thanks for listening. Till then.